Thoughts! They don’t fit well in a hectic Monday morning at work. People are busy writing emails, attending conference calls and discussing strategies with clients. And here I am, sitting in front of my desk staring at the empty excel sheet and lost in my thoughts. I need to prepare the budget details for the marketing campaign, but saving the blank excel sheet in my laptop is the only activity I have done so far.
Normally, it’s not an easy job to distract me from work. But today, I can’t concentrate. Emily was her usual self throughout the weekend until last night….
‘What’s wrong?’ I asked her as she started wearing her clothes hurriedly.
‘Daniel…I need to go.’
‘Where?’ I couldn’t understand where she could go at that hour of the night.
‘At Sarah’s place,’ she replied.
‘Is she okay?’ I asked her perplexed. Sarah, Emily’s best friend is six months pregnant.
‘No, she said she is facing some problem. Her husband is away on a business trip. So she texted me if I could come over.’
That reminded me Emily’s phone was ringing when we were making love. Was it Sarah?
‘Let me drop you at her place,’ I tried to figure out where my clothes could be. I pulled the trouser hanging from one corner of the bed.
‘I have booked a cab.’ She gave a peck on my lips and rushed out of the apartment. For the first time, since we got engaged, I was lying alone on the bed on a Sunday night. Off late, Emily is behaving strangely.
I came home early from work that day and was taking a shower when I heard Emily talking to someone on phone. I turned off the shower and was about to call her. Then I heard her saying, ‘No. Don’t rush. Wait for few more months. Do you want to give a shock now?’
I stood inside the washroom feeling guilty of eavesdropping. It was obvious Emily wasn’t unaware of my presence. She had used another set of keys to open the apartment door.
‘No, honey,’ she continued. ‘I too need some time…….No….’
I wanted to know who the ‘honey’ was. Having said that, Emily can get frank with people in no time. She doesn’t think twice before addressing people affectionately, not even strangers. Like that moment inside the washroom, I am confused at times.
Should I sound? Should I echo?
‘Okay, okay. I am coming right now,’ she walked towards the door and the keys made a jingling sound. I wrapped myself in a towel and thought, ‘What was that?’
‘Emi, do I make you happy? Are you enjoying life with me?’ I have asked her these questions many a times. Every time, she rested in my arms engrossed in thoughts. You need not answer all the questions! You can just laugh and laugh again. That will do a better job than judging her make-a-wild-guess expression.
Jessica’s footsteps bring me back to my desk. She passes me her usual smiling look. I look at her kohl lined eyes. They remind me of my Emily. Jesus ! Thoughts – they do what we don’t ask for!
I ask my mind if Emily loves me exactly the way I love her. But even before asking, I knew it! That I don’t know!
My landline rings and I almost jump on the seat.
‘Daniel, are the details ready?’ my boss demands in his heavy voice.
‘Yeah Morgan, you will get it shortly.’ I assure him.
What was I doing? I have a hell lot of work to do but I can’t get over my thoughts about Emily. At times, we pretend to think on one and actually think everything else!
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